My Grandfather Would Have Shot Me: A Black Woman Discovers Her Family's Nazi Past

Jennifer Teege writes passionately about her discovery has an adult that she has roots in the Nazi party.  Having grown up as an adopted foster child she has always been aware of her racial difference to her adoptive family.  Taken in by a loving family at the age of three and having been adopted at the age of six by the same family she has vague memories of her mother and maternal Grandmother.

When one day as a married adult woman with two children of her own, she opens a book in the central library in Hamburg, Germany to look at a man with familiar features and realize that is her Grandfather.  The book she picks up has the curious title,  I Have to Love My Father, Don't I?  The subtitle of this book reads, The Life Story of Monika Goeth, Daughter of the Concentration Camp Commandant from "Schindler's List".   As Jennifer Teege looks at the book in her hands she realizes that she is looking at a book written by her mother about her grandfather, Amon Goeth.
An extremely cruel and influential figure in the Nazi party, Teege is shocked to learn about her connection to this man.  Her grandfather is exposed to the world in the movie, "Schindler's List".  
Teege realizes the connection between Amon Goethe and Oscar Schindler,  "....drinking buddy and adversary: Two men born in the same year, one a murderer of Jews, the other their savior."

Teege had spent four years living in Israel in her young adult years.  She has a degree from Tel Aviv University in Middle Eastern and African studies.  She is fluent in the Hebrew language.  She has some very close friends who are Israelis, whose families escaped Eastern Europe and settled in Israeli living through and surviving the Holocaust.

Jennifer has to rethink her whole life experience.  Teege finds her life divided between the two time periods she has lived in, "A before, when she lived without knowledge of her family's past, and an after, living with that knowledge."   She spends quite a lot of time explaining in this book about how she comes to grips with the thought that she has the same blood following through her that Amon Goethe did.  She looks into the history of the time, what Goethe did in the concentration camp and what his family, her grandmother and mother knew while he was carrying out these atrocities.

This book is the way Jennifer Teege worked through her discovery and how she has been able to make it part of her narrative.  She has found a way to accept her ancestry and make the future better based on the past.